Welcome to the Grand Inevitable

2007-03-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

im elusified. Nevergone. Everlasting.

2007-02-12T10:12:00.000-08:00

Wad am i even eating..

Work. Uncrate. Unload. Load. Arrange. Work. Uncrate....

Boss commented tat im not fit enuf. So i shldnt quit so soon. LOL

More OTs more pay.

A level results? No pt thinking. Its out already(to be exact.. perhaps 2mths ago..). Just tat we havent got a chance to look at it yet.

AAB? AAC? BBC? BBD? BBE? BCC? BCD? BCE? wad else can i expect for myself.

Aerospace Engineering? Mechanical Engineering? Marine Engineering? Electonic Engineering? wad else can i do?

Live? continue Living? and finally Die. Wad else's to long for?

As empty as life as can be.

I cant find you in where i am. When can i see u finally?

Im getting zombified. Yawns. i need some attention. Perhaps NS shld come quick....

2007-02-02T11:12:00.000-08:00

Yawns. one more week of Nuaness at work.. b4 we seriously get to face the boss fight..
72containers.... 1728pallets... Tats the amt we'll be facing.

80pallets per day when our best is onlie 50. btw.. doing tat 50pallet almost took all of our lives. And now we have to do 80. well tats for sure tat there'll be OT's everyday. Not enuf? I'll get to work on weekends too.. A long 7day work week.. Probably lasting for 3weeks.

Dun worry boss. i'll quit after finishing the task for u. tho it's going to be hard and i wonder how in the world it'll be possible to do tat amt.. i wun quit just b/c its going to be hard aha.

Living Thru the tough times will make you a better person..

Geck's bday party tmr.. hope i got the direction right tho. wish me luck. Aniways, speaking of bdays... i wonder wad i shld get for tat special person, on the 10th.....
10th feb.. a special day for a special person i've known for so long.. yet knew abt this just a few mths agoooooo....

2007-01-31T09:50:00.000-08:00

munching on cold bread and thank godness some hot milo. IM starving. Work was fine.. not as tiring tho. Wasnt really pushing myself tat hard today..

Sigh Poh and iZ will be leaving. i mean yes immediately.The Manager kinda asked dem to leave after today haha after dey told him abt their plans. Well the management didnt wanted to get dem new punch cards tats all. hah its not serious as i've said.

i wonder.. i hope i'll feel alot better tmr...

i really need to run soon. whahaa.

2007-01-29T09:51:00.000-08:00

i grew sick of my blog skin. Naruto sucks. Its draggy.. its stupid.. i wud rather watch the news..

im so hungry. Cant eat anithing except for porriages and more porriages.. hope i'll recover quick. Needa work again.. v v soon.

oh well i can onlie say that the pass 4days.. including today have gave me ample time to rest my sorish arms and get my cold cough flu fever right. Wowing is anithign but Boring at least. wad else can i do anyway. i cant even run for now. Zzzzzzzzz

Unbelievable things happened.. well at least to me.. lately.

Happened to know abt how a puzzle manage to fall into place. In the past, i've always felt tat it was a mystery and such a thing wud have onlie happened due to a miracle. Who knows tat a well-told story could have made something so mysterious seem logical.. and extremely telling in fact. I hope for the best of the two of you anyway. U can do it.

All right. another shocking thing happened. Im invited to Geck's bday party(i tot she was joking at first). right. I cant turn it down of cos. I guess i'll have to lyk.. go there.. and try to be friendly with her lots of frens.. whom i bet i've never seen b4.. dunb worry abt the present. i intended to give her one aniway.. Bought liao also... how thoughtful of me..

How busy.. POH and IZ's gonna switch jobs.. leaving me all alone in tat labourish job.. well i guess the least i can do is to go to the morning shift. at least u know i wun get to go home late at night with tonnes of aunties.. im better off alone. hah without dem the aunties i meant. Goota fix lots of cupboards in my house.. change my internet system to total wireless.. and of all things yawns.. to tidy my room..

cant wait to get enlisted. yawns. this moment of standstill is killing me. i need a quest or something to fulfill.

when i grow up i wanna buy a second hand RX-7 or silvia.. drive all the way to sepang and drift

2007-01-18T09:44:00.000-08:00

The wonderful ppl this world possess...

Tired and hungry. i munch on my pancakes and sipped my hot milo. Thinking of the stupid incident tat happened not too long ago... i really hoped tat a pallet of johnnie walker dropped on him.

argh. he got employed for a reason. For wadeva it may be im sure tat the reason is never to look at the wrapping machine. damn tat asshole.

Cant wait for the weekends to come. im not sure how much less boring it may be, however i wud be glad with just a nice and long nap. I cant wait to get my pay too.

I wonder wad lies ahead.. wads gonna happen to my results.. even if i pass. wad can i do to earn money in the U.... im not qualified to teach piano.. tkd... all the things i've done when i was younger yet regretted not to have mastered now.. ah crap..

All shall be repeated once again tmr..

I need a gaming job tat pays for my education... driving fees... car... house.. phone and utility bills...

2007-01-05T02:03:00.001-08:00

Im such a gay today.

Let me declare wad i did so gayishly.

I ended my shift early today. Supposed to be an 11hr shift but i stopped working at the end of the 4th hr. claiming tat i had a stomachache.

went to an interview right after my.. bluff and act. And im not even comfirmed of getting the job.

so much for probably nothing. Earned the trust of others, while i knew tat they were simply trusting the wrong person.

2006-12-22T06:46:00.000-08:00

An outing of three.. Which otherwise wud have been four... Four. A number which is impossible now.

im finally employed. but with a super underated job with a ultra low pay. compared to somelse wif the same qualifications, able to spend the same time yet earning alot more den me. im seriously losing out.

my sis said. u can think abt tat. but u're definately getting a higher paid job once u graduate from education. And u may not have another chance to be a waiter. Well.. comforting enuf. At least i have my frens there to work with.

But i stil hope tat i can get a higher paid office job while i earn some spare cash in tat restuarant.

2006-12-19T04:22:00.000-08:00

Gone for the pass 10days and finally back for good.

Hongkong. A lady's paradise for shopping. And hell for a guy... erm well, looking at the optimistic pt of view, its pretty okay for a chill out trip(tho 10days in tat country is seriously too long)

Some notable stuffs to talk abt.
When u see ur fren while shopping in town. u'll say oh singapore's so small... What abt seeing ur fren while shopping in a foreign country?? WHAT A SMALL WORLD. sigh.. and its not just 1 frens. but 2 of dem. and i saw dem each on different days.

Some of the the service in hk is really good. the shop assistance even do the clothes matching for u. Those tat are bad.. seriously gave u the kiampa look. gOsh.. And i must say there's really a problem with the ppl in hongkong. The daily commoners are rude... uncultured.. and loud.. Imagine urself stepping on the foot of some auntie by the streets undelibrately.. U'll end up getting scolded right in the face in the streets of hongkong.

The other stuffs are rather trivail. Shopping.. eating dim sum.. air conditioned environment(winter mah).. Ocean park... macau... casinos.. u get it..

The verdict. 6 out of 10 stars. It wud have been a 7 or 8 if the trip was onlie 3 to 4 days. The final few days in that compacted residential estate we lived in.. was torturous. Total bordom if u talk plainly abt shopping in HK. And finally.. tat will probably be the first and last time i'll be going to that country for a trip.

And its job hunting time.

2006-11-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

Couldnt slp. i wonder why.

Spent my day with weird ppl... in a weird place.. but somehow i think i had fun while i studied loL..

Aniway i really do hope someone can prove me wrong. :> but i wonder who bothers to...

2006-11-07T09:41:00.000-08:00

Where Friendship didnt matter.. as much animore.

Right i was doing physics. Half way thru this thing strucked me and i really have to write it down b4 i forget abt it.

Right out of the oven we have the definations for acquaintances, friends and buddies

1)Friend: A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts
2)Acquaintance: A relationship based on such knowledge
3)Buddy:A good friend

There's so much tat i wan to say tat i really didnt know where to begin.

I guess i'll start from wad Guansheng once wrote in his blog, "the preference for friends changes with time." Tho it doesnt really stand in parallel to wad im trying to bring abt, the essential pt remains.

While i once thought of finding friends who i can have for a life time. I mean seriously LIFELONG FRIENDS(u stay together every single second). I begin to realise it didnt really exist at the first place.

I can really back this up with the sentence "people come and go". I can quote examples. Jocelyn. The only reason why i can be close to her now is purely becos im in the same class with her. Nothing more. I dun really recall us being tat close when i was in Sec school. And i am sure things will die down once we part after Jcs.

Yzeyang and Guansheng. These 2 fellas have been a hell of a company, at least for the pass 6 yrs(8 to be exact for YY). But wad does the future hold? Seriously do u think we will be as close after we attended NS? Will tat still be the case when we go to the U, graduate with a job... ect...

Basically my pt here is tat the people u may be close with now are rather... oriented by factors such as chance, preference and even time. It's as simply as this. People u can spend enuf time to trust and like, they're called Friends(cheewee ect). People who u spent more time with, of which u had more chances to know dem better, Buddies(For now Guansheng yzeyang joce ect). People whom u recognise, acquaintances u'll call dem(u know who im refering to, esp those in Innova).

To get this straight im not saying im gonna stop making friends since everyting seems to look so fake(tho its true) by the way i put it. Its lyk, sometimes there's no use trying to keep a friendship when it seriously unsustainable(due to the factors mentioned). On the contrary, wad i tried to make myself believe is tat we shld really open our social space to people. Due to the factors mentioned, the whole cycle of meeting acquaintances, having friends and finally finding buddies repeats itself all the time in our entire life.

However i must say, buddies u knew in the past are still buddies when the time and chance factor allows one to meet. A cool grp of primary schoolmates can once in a while sit by a pub, drink to their hearts fill, talking abt stuffs tat dey undeerwent after so many years apart. U get wad i mean.

Lifelong companionship doesnt apply for friends. Perhaps the dictionary shld make the defination of friends sound like this, "people whom u know and can trust, in a period of time" Perhaps the reason why so many females(hint) didnt really like guys for a buddy, is simply becos, they need potential spouses(afterall i feel that they are a grp who desperately wans to get married), not guy friends. Right. i guess the only lifelong companion u can probably find would be ur family(ur concorts siblings parents...)

However the analysis shld only end here. One must be happy with wad he/she has now. For all the things he possess(now) will soon be a vestige in his memories.

Im happy to have u guys in my life, for now. Thank you my buddies. Before everything ends....

2006-10-31T22:50:00.000-08:00

Remember how it felt lyk when u first stepped onto the starting line.

Remember the kind of doubt and uncertainty tat filled u.

Remember how it felt when u wanted to give up whenever the race gets painful.

Remember how u retaliated all those tots with positive ones.

Remember how u succeeded in overcoming urself.

Regardless of anione else, U are ur own champion.

U've done it and u can do it again.

Life begins in 14days Time

2006-10-16T04:44:00.000-07:00

The Internet sure does wonders. I've never realised how it may have connected all of us together even if u dun know the person at the other end of the line. Until now...

Great. Met up with ANN CHONG SHU EN today(at the expense of Econs Mock) and i realised, "cool" She's still the same. waha. Fullstop. Wads so fun talkin abt studying aniway.

But at least she showed me wad u mean by being real and trueful. Unlike some...

Cool. I managed to consult her in some econs and physics stuffs too(tho she dun take physics). Kinda well spent. Great.

Well done. Perfect. Combo 21. K O!

Back to work. Nights Bye.

'Sometimes i wonder if Mr chu can Get an A if he were to take the Alevels Econs paper with us...'
'I really do wonder if MR teo can get an A too if he attempts the Alevel physics paper with us..'
'I have no doubts over Mr Goh... He'll shut the exam booklet after 5minutes... after writing all the respective years that these questions had surfaced in previous years. Freak'

Happy Bday Meiyi from the 3rd time. Bday wish for u.

Not for u to see

"Thanks." Insider joke from S62. Dun be too sad.

2006-10-08T09:04:00.000-07:00

shhh.. keep the volume down and listen.. Wad do u hear?

I hear the cries of a million man, galloping of a thousand houses and the drums of war. I hear thunder. As A levels approaches. The dawn of war is soon upon us..

haha its probably getting boring to even read thru any one of our blogs. A levels, lousy prelim results, im gonna fail and die.. blah blah.. this and that.. U get the idea.

But(unfortunately) infact this very true. Let me see. Just another 24days.... oh correction, its pass midnight now.. so.. 23days before the first paper. There is no way someone's gonna tell u that he managed to lvl his warlock or get some super rare and unique item from his game. (maybe there are ppl who really do.. i wonder who)

Right talk abt myself. And my plan. Essentially, i have onlie 1 more week to catch up to where i shld have been. As in u know.. the standard i shld have been, given so much time in the past(after races ofcos) in which i ought to have utilitised to reach my potential. right now im nothing but an underperforming piece of.. rock.

And again, its time to have a.. PARADIGM shift in my perception. Ha. im good(i hope at least). BUT not good enuf. i dun think i can ever acheive 3 distinctions with my own prowess alone. I need people who are better to help me. But and again are there ani in my class? perhaps there are. Yet they are probably trying to do wad im doing too... Who will be willing to help if he(generic) himself requires aid(S) tat badly??

Time to look beyond the class, says my second voice(it has always existed in me. I think i have duo personalities). Alright. I've seen many potential beings who can help me. Yet again my ego holds myself back to seek help.

Who cares abt the pride and shit aniway. If u can get 3As with someone helping u or (even better) without anione helping u, wad differences is it going to make? U got 3As aniway..

Right. I need help. Im willing to seek, but is there anione who is willing to aid?

2006-09-29T20:23:00.000-07:00

32 days and counting.... Each and every second slipping thru my fingers even as i type this entry..

Well to think abt it. iTs abt 45 days to freedom.

The usual thing one can do when he gets up; feeling lethargic all over. An overwhelming urge to lie back down unto his bed. Somehow, however he manages to muster all the strength he has in him to get up. Knowing that the dawn of war is soon upon him. He has no choice but to continue with... Math, Econs and Physics... wahha. on wad he left off yesterday.

Unprecedented and without empirical evidences.... He hopes to make a new History.

2006-09-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

Time is sure running out fast.. Faster den anione can imagine...

YET...

Oh i must tell u. I managed to lv my Warlock to 15today. cool ahaa.. i didnt exactly spend the entire day on it.. ahha its just 2 lvs tho.. 1and a half hrs.. bought myself a nice little Arcane Wand that deals more dmg den my Shadow Bolt. OKay im bored enuf.

Yawns.. Done with Econs.. Done physics.. Well tats an accomplishment at least.

Let me guess my grades this prelim... F for econs.. D for physics.. hmm maybe C for Math.. HOPEFULLY.. and also a C for GP.

ADAMnED.. i dun wanna get lyk EEE D7 for As.. ahhaa

2006-09-22T07:51:00.000-07:00

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2006-09-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since studying was tat fun. Mr Brown, Crap, Physic and math.

wahha Running was never tat fun. Craps. Mass Display. 15 cockish rounds arnd the track.

Riding the Bike has never been tat fun. Falling, balancing, falling again.

Cool day. I;ve enjoyed it. Hope u guys and u too

2006-08-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

ALL WOMEN COOK and ALL MEN DRIVE

yes this is absolute. Dun try to refute me.

wad abt a man tat cooks?
It'll be a bonus. Just in case ur wife or gf ditches u becos u're too poor for dem, u can cook ur own meal!

Wad abt a Woman who owns a liscence to drive?
WELL DONE!! U're 1 step closer to doing the parallel parking.

wah randomised. aniway back to my pt why the above sentence is absolute. Males that cant drive are BOYS and Females that cant cook are girls. DAMNED i cant drive and i cant cook. Wad does tat make me?

IM WORST DEN A NOOB!!!!!

2006-08-29T03:37:00.000-07:00

The First begins tmr.

Right. Full of Mass media, Globalisation and technoscience. I cant stop them from replicating in my mind. Their echos are driving me crazy. Well. At least i can say that im more well informed compared to previously.

Right. Went into class(econs) with a sad/tired face. Wadeva u call it.(BTW i think my face looks lyk tat. i cant help but say tat its not my fault to look lyk tat. My mum gave me this face) The truth is, im not sad, neither am i tired. And the reason isnt abt JOcelyn not being in class. Im just disappointed. Of myself rather. 65 days and counting to the "Grand Judgement", i'll call it, yet im allowing each and every minute to leak away lyk tat of a cracked hourglass. Why is this happening to me.

I see tonnes of ppl catching up. At first,I had a vast headstart. Some of which I met eye to eye. Continuously i knew that im gonna throw them all behind once im released from the shackles of my CCA. However, now, i see them progress even closer. I maybe having illusions, but for sure, if this pertetual shagginess persist, i may jollywell find myself trailing behind nobody. I cant no longer kip up.

Once a mighty warrior, Now a useless heap.

NO.

Tat will never be the case. Thanks to my pride i will never allow anyone of them to touch me. Not in innova.

2006-08-17T12:05:00.000-07:00

Alright. The time is 3.01am and i have arnd 3 more hrs to study b4 heading to school.

after days of practice. i've finally mastered the art of staying awake. Just think of the demanding activities im gonna do tmr makes me excited. Tennis... Intensive lessons and remedials... im really enjoying live now.

Got a chance to talk to one of my frens recently.. lost contact evasince i graduated from the boys home. oh i mean cat high. He got retained and stuffs.. now serving his imprisonment in an ITE. ahh im not trying to mock at him or anithing, im no better infact. Its just the name of the "prison" tat differs aniway.

Ah life changed so much for him. Well for me too. After all the yrs of seperation, all the disastrous events i knew he has gone thru, yet his pride is still strong.. AHaa.. still the usual "BIG CANNON" in chinese u will say. DA1 PAO4. kinda happy for him for remaining tat way despite all the vicissitudes in his life (tho i used to get rather pissed with tat character of his). Oh well he even invited me out for a drink tmr. ahha but im still underaged.. i wonder..

Tat brings me to my pt, i've realised tat many of us.. ya infact i feel all tat are in my class(esp some), school(mostly) are still living in their protected little world. We never knew how malignant the boat of life can steer to at a single instance. serious. Im not saying its an obligation for one to be able to turn prophetic overnight, but things in our life are simply too smooth sailing, comparatively. All the things tat might have happened. Its either ur parents divorce, u getting bad PW grades, fren's dumped u cos she dun lyk ur hair and the other usual blah blah tat u can hear ur frens complain about. And tey opening declare that these are the worst and they wanna end their own life cos life simply sucks. Trivial i will say

Wad many dun realise is how feeble things arnd u can be. U maybe talkin to ur fren and the next moment a car may run him over. Ya tats wad im talkin abt. Trapped.. or shld i say willingly encaged in our innocence, we never considered our every action, movement or even breath, how the next could have been so different from the previous. Words and Actions are so easily produced yet of little considerations. U may know tat the friendship u have with somebody maybe close yet not close enuf or rather recently been affected due to his change in hairstyle, and so ya its okay to DUN GIVE A damn abt him for tat period(so long he kips tat hairdo). And if he dies after the next step he takes, you're gonna regret for not treating him better.

Food for thought.. for myself (btw there are exceptions, i dun give a damn for u even if u die now. well ofcoc tat wun be the case if u are still considered relevant in my life). Think abt the things u have done up to today. Is there a way u can treat everyone a little nicer? Will u regret not doing so if that somebody passes on the next moment?

If she passes away now. It'll be a regret of my life. Unfortunately i dun have the courage to say sorry. How i hope wad u said b4 could remain true ; frens forever.

2006-08-03T07:05:00.000-07:00

An entry i've wanted to write since... i cant remember

Finally had a chance to touch the com. Had been rather busy these few weeks... The wave just keeps coming and coming. It never seems to cease. First i tot it was nationals, now its A levels.
Nothing else to comment.

Aniway u shld be known as the best friend i'd never have. paradoxical isnt it...

2006-07-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

So much for all the wans and donts. I've extended my date of retirement further.. OH well.. We qualified for the 4 4 finals.. i think my team's kinda happy. Not for me tho. Im normal.

Did a 2.05 today. Not exactly fast in terms of national standard but it seemed to be a huge milestone to me. 7th position overall. Fulfilled my goal to become top 8 in the country. Yet the truth still lies ahead. I would have been 9th if not for some unlucky soul who pulled his muscle and some other who fell nearing the finishing line. My real standard still not there yet. However i did wad i could at that pt of time... im proud of myself.

2 days of intensive racing and now my body seems as tho its gonna be pulled asunder by 4 Turbo-Charged Evos attached to my limbs. not to mention tat ankle of mine... got to get an artificial 1 soon.. i cant even fall aslp i have not idea why tho.

And i tot about you just when i was dying in the finishing kick. Thanks for giving me strength. Tho u may not be watching.

Soon everything will be over. The relays... YES. and i'll soon be retrenched by my... not v good coach aka teacher in charge. I wonder how the team will be without my lead LOL. seriously the team needs me as the sole line of communication. Oh well.. there's always the newly appointed captain. Well den. It'll be THREE As tat im aiming for next.

Wads so hard aniway hahaa.. Im already seen the worst..

2006-07-12T06:00:00.000-07:00

It'll be over soon eh.. ahh i wonder how life will be lyk den.

Why its 4 by 400 tmr... a mixture of feelings.. at one pt i relaly hoped to stop running. on the other i hope to qualify the finals tmr.. wthH..

Oh well... after friday i can eat wadeva i can.. tat;s something to celebrate abt... yay

2006-06-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

Body IMpressive, Brains Optional..

ahhaa nah just some comments after i chanced upon someone's blog. haha
But come to think abt it.. Body impressive. Its a highly subjected comment. Tho Brains Optional is definately object.

aha wad shld i do with my time now.. loL.. There's still an hr and half to the match. Zzzz.. Studying is such a borrish chore to do. well initially it looked kinda fun.. cos u dun know anithing abt it.. but after u've known dem all.. looking thru dem again simply sucks

Oh well i cant say ive perfected dem. Well at least i think i've seen all of them b4.. Dem.. as in the chapters NOOB. loLSssssssss.

2006-06-19T21:19:00.000-07:00

You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted.

You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

Some Element of truth here.. haaa

2006-06-19T00:17:00.000-07:00

I dreamt tat i was in university and i was asking my prof if he knew how a drift car works..

Den he brought me to a spin in his car (a S13 i think) ahaha.. can faintly remember the green car with afterstock round taillights tat looks lyk a GTR's... lOL

I wonder wad i;ve been thinking even as i slp..

Had fun going sideways.. at least it felt real..

Zzzz enuf dreaming.. back to physicsmixedwithmathandecons... Im gettin myself entertained with random maths and econs qns when i get sick of physics loL im nuts

2006-06-18T10:04:00.000-07:00

why do i talk abt u to whoever's present. be it close or even acquaintances whenever i think about u? WHY? i question myself. Because its cool to lose u? Or am i asking for more attention from these ppl?

or is it becos i cant get over you

Time flies i must say. 1 year has passed. Well almost. But everything seems to happen lyk yesterday.

Wad can i do?

I did 2.07 flat today. Are there anichances that u may be looking at how i ran? Please tell me abt it.. my coach told me its ok.. FULLSTOP. haha tho i didnt really break my pB.. (i did la by 0.43secs)

Missing my Moviemate. Shopping mate. Chatting mate. Confident. Buddy. And more

2006-06-14T10:48:00.000-07:00

In the past i used to hope very much that someone will read wad i write here...

Hahh finally back from my camp. literally. My camp. It was planned out single handedly all by myself.. impressive huh. Nahh not really. Its simple and short actually. And that is exactly how a training camp is supposed to be. Yet i was utterly marked down mercilessly by our dear sir Eric wong. ahhh And so as he goes comparing how i planned the camp with the Soccer(ya and u shld get the race) Boys. How the M.. Soccer boys managed to issue roles to different members and having a "Camp Motive" writen out in black and white.

ha come to think abt it how insensative DEAR coach has been to me. first the soccer boys are in J1. they can offord all the time dey have in their lifes(probably due to their race) to plan for a camp that lasts for a prestigious 2 day and 1 night CAMP. Sacarsm felt btw. Second they had the entire team to do it tgt. I HAD TO DO IT ALONE.. WTF. Third, they are M... alright count tat point out. yayaya and he continued on how much organisation i'd need by writing the schedule out.. OH and BTW when it doesnt even fit half of the page. At the first place i've alreadi planned out the various activities at which the time slots and this info have been long disseminated to all campers..

HAhaa after all the jargon(well at least thats how i felt) he gave, he said," BUT MR KOH CANCELLED THE SOCCER CAMP IN THE END as only 10 wanted to go" whaha COOL. after all that hard work. wad an irony.. and my camp turned out kinda successfully.. well at least nothing bad cocked up.. (Counting the Security alarm thingy aside..)

And im shld be feeling exhuasted. I SHLD BE.. and NO. I MUST BE. haha reached back and took a 2hr nap b4 i continued with work. Had another session with my apprentice.. and tada.. Physics again. NOw its kinda early in the morning.. 2am i mean. and come to tink abt it.. 12 hrs ago im still studing in school while the others are either slping or crapping away after nights out. i havent been slping much.. Syet omehow im not exactly tired..

Lets see how much fortitude can this human body take.. b4 it finally breaks asunder..

2006-06-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

Returnable memories... my nostalgic past..

aniway its been a long time since i felt lyk this. being able to sit right infront of this squarish screen, typing wad i want to say. relaxed and secured.. Somehow studying made me real anxious probably becos there's not much time left till As now.. but i guess there's no harm taking 5mins of break from all the studying for this little revelation session.

Enuf with all the verbose..

If u havent already gotten ur hands on the latest issue of Hotstuffs. Let me tell u this. DUN. Well its not the content actually but rahter.. the cover. Haa i wudnt mind if u were to rip off the front page while u continue the indulge in the world of roaring engines and blow-off valves. Just when i tot i can get a car magazine without any cover girls. Now they're beginning this trend... Hey com'n, im not saying having a cover girl is bad, but at least find someone decent to pose right?? Oh well come to think abt it, its rather difficult tho.. haha Singapore Models?? NAh.. how good can they get?? Local Proverbial old school style of Bimbo modelling.. ahha. sorry but im being cynical rather den sexist here..

aniway.. im rather amazed and... perbably happy tho with the change in layout.. hah more insights and information to feed my eva hungry curiousity for cars..

Oh well, i shld say that thats the only thing i can comment abt up to now. i really wonder if studying for the prelims will do ani good for my grades aniway.. dun study get this kind of grades.. study also get same grades.. Yawns.. wrong way of studying u may say.. probably..

and ya. i;ve gotta meet out with some assclown tmr for breakfast.. somehow i must really learn how to mean and start rejecting others.. Even if i wan to be nice, sometimes it just dun pay.. wahhaa.. but come to think abt it i havent been seeing her for a long time.. i wonder how she looks lyk now.. I'll find out tmr~

Aniway there;s only 2 weeks left before a new term begins. woah tats half a year more b4 i can kiss everyone in IJC goodbye.. i must say u guys SUCK. ahhaa. i dun care if aniones gonna read this but i seriously think tat way.. Well maybe some lucky souls whom i consider... worthy enough can be left aside. But probably i wun stay in contact with u guys aniway. unless u are to make the initiative to do so. Its good to stay cool and oblivious, i feel, sometimes..

Oh well.. just wack thru the remaining days and yea.. 2 years of BREAK in NS.. HERE I COME~~

2006-05-25T00:01:00.000-07:00

Let's see if this works. hehe

Dear dear Mr Chu, HOD of econs, IJC

I've always felt that your height is amusing.

And there's 1 burning question in me. WHY DUN U HAVE A LICENSE??? It'll be the first ting i'll get when im of the legal age and of cos when i can afford it.

WHY do u lyk to hop arnd ppl's blog just to read abt their contents abt you??? Weird ehh.
If I were u and i really needed some form of amusment, i'll try staring at myself in the mirror lol...

NO OFFENCE.

ahaa.. i still wanna score well for econs.. End of experiment. Anyway let me tell u this. Im quite sick of u commenting about how good Dian.. or whoever else.. are in econs. Its time for u to have a change of perspective....

Im serious.

Had a chance to skip school today. And i must say i really needed that rest. Showing symptoms of illness again. Looks lyk i'll fall ill once in every 2 mths. Life is interesting at it's dullest moment i must say.. Yawnss im going back to do some GP discussion with my Second Voice.

2006-05-13T10:38:00.000-07:00

The attack came at such swift that it almost caught Kel head on. As he jumped to his right, Kel noticed the level of destruction Dogrim had left in his original position. Even before he could land on both feet, the next wave of devastation came. Kel conjured a simple spell. Simple it may be, but effective it was to bring Kel out of the spell's path of harm. By summoning a minute part of the dark energies in him, Kel shifted his coordinates into another that is secure.

Kel knew that he could never match Dogrim's speed to multi-cast spells. Dogrim have been, ever since a hundred years ago far more superior. Yet the curse he had brought Kel through remained tainted and scarred in his memories.

"I'll never forgive him, for all the massacre he had made me go through." Kel muttered.

Reminiscences of past filled in mind. Kel on his part painfully tried to forget the scene when he drived a stake into the heart of his beloved consort, as she willingly offered her soul for she knew Kel can one day offer vengeance to all that have died. Dogrim the betrayer must die.

"That talisman attached... or should i say fused to your heart bears the soul of all those you slaughtered, am i not right Brother Kel? Aren't you willing to unleash all that fury by removing that mask of yours?" Dogrim mocked.

Kel will never do so. He'll risk losing everything, his humanity, his memories of his loved if he dared remove his limiter. The soul curse have brought him much power, but power that did not belonged to him originally. Unleashing it all may drive himself amock. He knew that his body can never take on so much power at once.

"What should i do?" Kel placed his hand on his mask as he again dodged one of Dogrims hellish attacks......

2006-05-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

"Well well well, look who we have here. Who can it be other than the traitorious abomination Kel."

Without any intention to reply. Kel muttered a curse lost to the world of mortal beings. In a blink of an eye, a sphere of pure darkness enveloped his adversary, exploding into a ball of flames. The blazing heat touched all surrounding flora, leaving the vicinty nothing but a patch of barren land.

As the flames continued to engulf with such intensity, a figure re-emerged from the ball of crimson. With a rise of a finger, all that is left in the surrounding moisture convoked, conjured to satisfy one purpose. Within split seconds what Kel sought to have destroyed Dogrim dissipated into thin air.

"That cannot be" Kel thought.
"My turn" Dogrim gave out a silent and sinisterly smile.....

2006-05-12T20:13:00.000-07:00

sigh

Allow me to indulge my senses with the crys of war and the incineration of the living...

Let me enter the world of warcraft.

My one and only companion

2006-05-11T11:20:00.000-07:00

i wonder if i shld slp... its 2.30am in the morning and there's still abt 2 hrs to go b4 my show is aired.. I can slp but risk missing the replay.. Zzzz.. wad shld i do~

wahaha MB you are a fool to have even wasted your time on those Crap.

Thanks joce. U know why. If not for u i wudnt have been able to see things tat clear. I have an answer. It will be a regret. but somehow i know im not required animore~ and of cos. i'll take my rightful role lyk a visage of a vox populi, to become vancant and vanished.

To who it may concern. Im gonna check out of your life competely, lyk wad u have once jokingly asked me to. Unfortunately this time is for real. There're simply better people out there tat deserves me unlyk u.

Good bye.

aniways. you really have to choose your buddies u see. It's good to have friendships. And its better to see them crumble infront of your own eyes. Not tat im a sadist. but the process is perfect, and intriguing. The forms of emotion u may feel; Pain, Hurt. It consolidates into something Warm after you have truely found a conclusion. to your doubts.

Well I guess you'll just be one of my.. many collections of time. And so when i look in retrospect in future, i'll know thatyou were once my potential buddy and maybe, when i see you i may give an amicable smile and say hi??

For now u are nothing more but my classmate.

2006-05-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

Are you sure that Trinity Blood ended with 24episodes in all??
Yaya.. Abel Finally unleashed 100% of his Crusnik powers.. and he had this catastophic battle with Cain. But the battle scene faded away without a conclusion.. Wtf... and the story ended without even stating why they bore such deep hatred towards each other.. DEY FIGHT FOR FUN IS IT??

haa.. Gosh.. There goes another means of entertainment for me. What should i seek next? I;ve been getting so busy with training and work. shld i say got too Focused? such that i havent been really caring for wads happening arnd me. For example.. i was commenting during math lesson that day Why was STEVEN so quiet that day.. In fact i was kinda shocked. Verily alas.. i found out he is not even in class....

wahhaa.. and i must say.. i havent been spending my money too.. I wonder wad i shld do with dem.... i shld get myself a new pair of traininers soon.. my shouri is breaking apart.

Sadly i guess i'll have to go over to queensway alone i guess.. i used to have you for company.. ahah... but for now.. i guess it's best to go alone....

Sigh... i tot i;ve gotten u out of my life 5nally. Somehow u emerged from my cloudy memories once again. And i must say i still miss you... the date draws near.. one year seems to pass so quickly. i Hope you're happy whereva you are.

2006-05-05T22:44:00.000-07:00

"I have no wants for now"

A reminiscent of wad i once said to a good friend of mine. Now i've realised there's something i've always wanted to face but dared not. That's reality. Reality is harsh music. Something too far away from the dreams one may have desired.

I've realised and maybe even understood why there are some who could make their dreams a reality. It was forged on the basis of being realistic.... And wad i meant here is to be more realistic den wad all of us have always tot its true meaning to be.

ahh.... upon this realization, the problems (friendship can be one, and i know some may know to who i may be refering to. But i can tell you, it's not just a single individual.)... in one way or another are so... innocuous to all may be happening in my life. Life is interesting... and never a dull moment. haha

2006-04-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

Happened to chance upon this question this afternoon "Have you ever been in love"
I was lyk wtf.. i cant remember..

I guess i could have considered falling in love as a past time.. Something tat once existed. Well i have better things to do now rather den to have silly crushes on ppl i dun even know or stay in love for 10239 yrs for the same girl.. i sound so deprived...

aniways im so hooked up with my tots recently... Im lyk trying to devise new ways to hit my 2min target. But somehow the thing tat seems to be holding me back is.. MR WONG wahhaa.. must try to talk him out of training me.. But come to think abt it.. he's the best we have :X

WHAHA PARIS TMR. ive been looking forward to it eva since the start of april. FINALLY THE CHANCE TO FEAST IS HERE!!!! ahh raw oysters.. succulent beef... ahha mouth watering sashimi... wtf i cant wait for it to come. Im gonna go without breakfast ahahaa.. go there clear table

oh btw.i can forget abt buying Trinity blood.. why? dl la easier ahahaa. im alreadi down with 5episodes.. damn cool.. a must catch anime. however it may seem too grotesque and.. voilent forsome.. But of cos if you too childish for it DUn watch. u wun understand it aniway

2006-04-29T09:04:00.000-07:00

Zzzz wanted to go over to amk lib this morning.. Well ostensive motive was to get my new book.. den sun bian go lib study u see.. Such a loser.. i had to fall back on tireness and loneliness as excuse for not going. BOo..

Die sial Run abit hamstring tia until as tho it's gonna get pulled animoment. im having problems walking and i cant straighten my leg.. Gosh.. Sprinting is really injury prone. Sorry TJ for laughing at you wheneva u complain abt hamstring aches.

Haa.. and so i stayed at home. Finally completely Tut 34.. and WARCRAFT3 EXPANSION whahaa. can u believe it. its such an old game but i still managed to pull thru the entire campaign.

i must say tat im lyk a warcraf freak alreadi. i wonder who can beat me in the knowledge of the world of warcraft... Every detail in the timeline. every minute event tat took place in the world i know dem all.. waHHAaa. I really hope blizzard can come up with warcraft 4 - Attack of the monstars or smth...

well talk abt warcraft. Some may say that the game has alreadi reached its peak of development. But i must say, i'll be able to give the developers some good suggestions. Tho they may cuase the game to become rather... Complicated.

The hero system. Dey can include several spells to be choosen whenever each individual hero is trained. In tat way we can see much more animation on the battle map rather den be confined to the 4 old skills that everyone will use. BORING. Den perhaps for items Heros can do things lyk to combine recipes.. just lyk those in DOTA... Individual Units shld have more individual skills. and dey shld be given the choice for weapon too. Lyk a footman can choose a axe instead of a sword. den the different weapons will give a different spice to the battles too.. COOL HUH..

but my suggestions are probably a fluke. The motive of the game is for players to have it short, at the same time enjoy. Who's gonna play with players lyk MONG who lags everytime he tries to make a decision lyk which skill to click, wad weapon to use. lOL.. a 15min game may jolly well end up in a 15hr death match in which the person who can stay awake throughout wins.. not by strategy or micromanagement...

Aniway.. i strongely dun think Blizzard's gonna end the WArcraft production with a skimpy "world of warcraft". I must admit the game is real cool.. BUt one can really get sick of the game thanks to all the balancing dat made the different classes similar, confined with a small pool of SPellwork and skills to choose from.

Other den that, the story isnt completed. The Lastest Expansion ended off with arthas seating on the frozen throne. HEy wudnt his ass freeze if he were to sit on it for too long??? There must be something that will happen later right?? wad abt the civil war between the 2 grp of scourge?? KelThuzard and Sylvannas are still battling out in Lorderaon u know??? Den wadabt Thrall and Jaina? u're sure dey dun have a problem rallying wad remains of the Horde and Alliance??? Wad abt The NightElves?? Are u shld dey are living their immortal lifes with each passing moment without a single thing to do??? AND there's more. Illidan was slashed by arthas at the final battle, but is he dead? So if he is, will Kael with his higelves and Vashj with her Nagas avenge for him??? Not forgetting the Final Demon lord who still lives in the twisting nether.. Kiljaeden, are u shld he's gonna sit by his sofa and watch tv? And forget abt all that has happened in the world of azeroth?? oh gawd..

DEY HAVE TO EXPAND THE GAME FURTHER.. Of cos i hope tat happens before my time has passed... Their production takes ages.. Ahhh "STARCRAFT:GHOST coming ur way summer 2004". COM"N its alreadi 2006 where is the GAME???

2006-04-23T00:51:00.000-07:00

Guys let me share with u a studying tip.

WHen u get sick of doing econs essay outlines, switch to something else to take a break. That may be lyk doing Physics AC tut or Math 33b, if not the pj math specimen paper.

Den once u get sick of doing either of the mentioned, switch to reading the lecture notes. Otherwise u can try taking a breather by attempting to solve something u have never learnt. lyk a random NUCLEAR physics qn from the TYS. NOT ENUF? u can take out the nearest malay dictionary and start trying to memorise good malay terms.... dun be shock, i do have a malay dictionary.

WAHHAA TRAINING TOMORROW. WHOOOOO go look for my spikes liao.. whoooTt. time to throw my shouri and all my racers away...

2006-04-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

After much consideration and tot. i guess i didnt waste my time for that trip down to GomBak stadium afterall.. haha if not it wud have been totally senseless.. to travel for such a far distance just to catch a 12sec race..

Saw how various runners ran did for the 1500m race. I guess im not tat nonchalent to running related stuffs yet hmm.. i really felt lyk joining dem tho i may be positioned way at the back. Sometimes i really think that im such a simple person. It just take tat 1 very race that spurred me back to life again.

I want to run..

Not just tat, Ms lee managed to cleared some doubts tat i had in myself. She's such a nice person to talk to. At least she has promised to pass me training schedules if i really were to train without a coach again... ha top 8 here i come

Good bye cross country. Welcome TRACK!! Sprint sprint sprint..

btw TJ this is our last chance to prove that we are fast hehe.. Make sure u scrap off that 0.2sec from ur PB.. i have... 8secs to scrap.. WHooO. 800 here i come

2006-04-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

everything aside. WE can considered things as a misunderstanding. Being Guys i assume that u can accept and forgive. Probably u'll deem it as nonsensical for me to flare up even at the first place. For that i apologise.

However there's an uncertainty i will have to clearify as far as this friendship is concerned. IF wad u need is a friend who can fill in the gaps, wherever they may be in ur family, love life, studies or simply just be secure. i can tell u i cant never do all that for u. I too have gaps in my family, love life, studies and even hopes to stay secure. Im not in aniway luckier or am i worst off compared to you. Wad u have i dun. and vice versa.

I'll be truthful in wadeva i feel for u now.

Eva since you stepped into this college wad i tot you were was but a distant vestige. You, with a goal and an end in mind is no more. That, the probable reason why u may feel so insecure over everything in ur life. To me u are aimlessly floating in this mere facade you call GUANSHENG, in a seemingly neverending sea called life. Wad you say or do is nothing else but a fultile attempt to show that you are still alive. You are wasting your life. wad u need to end all the insecurities is not friends. Companion will come to an end in time to come. I know that better den anyone of u. I truely do. i've alreadi lost someone i loved and truely deared. I dun wan to lose anione else more. It pains me more den anithing else to see a fren lagging behind wad we all painfully try to pull through ---LIFE. I hate to see friendships end simply BECOS whoeva cant be with u all the time or whoeva cant hit town with u. Friends are more than this. Its more den BGR i will say.

ITs time for you to re-establish the reasons why u are living in this world. If u see a reason to do something and that include studying. You'll by all means do it and do it well. Since u have no other choice other den to study. WHY NOT INDUCE SOMETHING TO MAKE U STUDY? I CAN DO IT WHY CANT U? i truely wan to step into ur life to see if its really TAT hard to live. u shld come live mine. see if its any easier

sigh. i hope this heart to heart revelation will mean us good.

2006-04-18T04:18:00.000-07:00

I sincerely hope that u will read this Guansheng.

I am pissed off at you. YES and u know it. Btw u have alreadi proven my guess correct by admitting it in ur blunder msg.

WHY AM I PISSED??
I am disturbed and pissed by wadeva u said by having sex with a malay girl and tat didnt sound lyk a joke to me. Yes i tried to shut u off by talkin alot. And i realised thats the only effective way to do so.

AND YES. u may be annoyed. IM SORRY. BUT u could have told me to stop. BUT DID U? u DIDNT. AND BY DOING SO u successfully BROKE my tolerence lv. FIRST IN HISTORY SOMEONE HAS DONE IT TO ME. BY BLOWING CONTINUOUSLY AT MY FACE. To anione else who may have chanced upon this posting, imagine some hooligan who stand a head taller den u, continuously blowing mouth stinking breathe right in ur face. HOW RUDE HOW DISGUSTING. Normal people would have alreadi got so pissed if it was the fan. AND GUESS WAD, I TOLERATED TAT SHIT all the way from admiralty till Khatib. IMAGINE THE HIGH LV OF TOLERANCE I SHOWED for his ever-ly persistance to piss me off. I TOLD U TO STOP BLOWING and i even commented tat u need to grow up. BUT DID U?

I've told u this just 30mins ago RIGHT in ur face and im gonna say it again. U need to know when to stop. PLEASE. if u are perverted yes u can show it off as a joke. NOT THE KIND U CRACK. I CAN NEVER ACCEPT THAT. if u are unhappy u can ask others how they feel abt ur sense of perversion. KNOW THE LIMITS PLEASE. i'll probably be the only truthful friend to tell u this. BECAUSE OTHERS WILL SIMPLY LEAVE U TO DIE.

Disclaimer:i admit that im not perfect and i do have my flaws which if u want, can to shoot it right in my face. AND IM HAPPY ABT IT. YET. i show no regret in wadeva i've said and U DESERVE everysingle word of my reprimand.

BTW i bet the scene on the train looked and sound so stupid to those present as well to those who reads my blog. I CANT help but feel STUPID and SHAMELESS. IM SORRY GUYS FOR BEING SUCH A LOSER. But u know.. birds of the same kind flock together.......

2006-04-15T21:59:00.000-07:00

Save me
All** I need you please
Save me now
I don't believe you want to leave me alone
'Cos All** I can't survive
you got to keep me alive
So All** save me
I need your love
To keep my faith and be strong
Now we can try again to get along'
Cos All** I can't survive
please All** save me

extracted from Save me -Leslie Parrish; SuperEuroBeat

2006-04-14T11:01:00.000-07:00

aH i Hope no one's gonna read this.

Strangely i feel as tho im lyk compiling tonnes of mistakes and failures year by year.. Each event getting worst and worst. Perhaps in future if someone were 2 ask me for my hobby, i can proudly tell him that it's to fail.

Whaahaa.. wads wrong with me. Things will always get cocked-up on the day im supposed to do my best. Sometimes i really wonder if there's really a parallel world where all things in that place will happen exactly the opposite of how it has turned out in our world....

I guess i must have been a extremely successful person over there.

Sigh oh well.. ITS FINALLY OVER all i can say. Such a personal disappointment. Such a personal failure.

And i tell u yes im depressed till such an extend i think i can never forgive myself.

Wad a loser.. must be my father's fault.. let me inherit such a lousy bloodline....

WAHAHa im actually insulting my entire pedigree.

Or perhaps it's my blasphemy to god that had cause such events to all retribute on me..

2006-03-11T02:29:00.000-08:00

My dear FREN. PLease understand my predicament. i cant PLAY animore.

Block test in 1 weeks time
Nationals in 1 mths time

If there's 25hrs in 1 day i wud have gratefully spend tat extra 1 hr entertaining u

Im tired. Wad supposed to be an easy training turned out to kill us all. I really tot it was just easy run..

Sigh. Had a haircut finally.
I had sudden spasms when i was cutting my hair. I bet the salon auntie tot tat i was crazy... Im simply too exhuasted..

When is this kind of life gonna end.. yawns..

Dying is easy huh..
YOU who have gone thru it understands best. BUT have u considered the pain u will have to put those who remained thru?

LIFE isnt easy man.
Its just lyk doing Cross Country Racing. The terrain no doubt.. Will be ragged. At any pt of the race you may just feel lyk dropping out, concluding the race with a "DNF" remark. Yet have u eva told urself, IF i were to GIVE UP NOW, WHY BOTHER RACING(LIVING) even at the first place??

Since u have no say in whether to get urself born into this world or not. U'll have to Finish the race no matter wad happens. It just take that extra PUSH.. tat extra clinch of the fist to make ur race perfect. A pefect PB...

PLease.. GET CONTROL OVER UR RACE. DUN let your mood, the weather, or wadevashit determine the outcome.

Lets Endure thru.

haa.. i feel nothing else but exhuation. I need a water break...

2006-02-23T00:15:00.000-08:00

At this PT of time i feel lyk knocking my tooth loose and asunder it with one mighty Blow from my Warhammer.

Wads GOOD?

1)Thanks to my molar i got adequate slp
2)i got to escape from my hectic schedule

FREAK!! whu gives a freaking care

Wads BAD den?

1) i failed to clock another 12km
2) I MISSED SCHOOL
3) IM IN DEEP EXCRUCIATING PAIN
4) I cant finish my work in this condition

Freak man. Last night was worst. I tried to overcome it with my mind... Somehow it seems immune however hard i tried.. Gosh i cant eat i cant drink.. Dying of malnutrition... Dying of dehydration..

BTW , Comments abt the NYP scandal? 1 word. STUPID.. 3 consecutive days i picked up the papers. 3 consecutive times i saw reports on the same issue..

singaporeans are LIFELESS.WE shld all knock ourselves hard on the head and put ourselves into enternal topor. Otherwise we shld all pick up our warhammers and parangs so we can hack life out of one another till extinction.

YAY. WE shld all die and vanish into the abyss of darkness

2006-02-21T04:19:00.000-08:00

Till this point, im uncertain myself if i shld continue to psycho myself that its all in the mind...

V soon i'll become a mental strength driven freak. For thats wad seems to be the only thing to keep me going....

"I;ve already gone so far.. If i were to give up now it will be super Bo Hua" Quoted from Ms lee when she commented tat tat is wad she told herself wheneva she feels lyk giving up after the 26km mark during her Marathon (FYI NOOBSHITS who dunno how long a marathon is, its 42.195KILOMETERS or if u wan a convertion ITS 26 MILES, 385 YARD. not the usual 6rnds or LESS of Tellitubby U run) race... btw.. compare it yourselves.. My race distance is 4.5km and she runs almost 10 times more den us.. why shld i even be complaining tat the race is tough (AND AGAIN IM PSYCHOING MYSELF.. DID I MENTION TAT WE GO TEN TIMES AS FAST???)

Well since the world is alreadi so freaking fake. Must as well make it Digital.. You know matrix?? Play mind games... whOOoo.. i can do it.. Its all IN THE MIND man.
Wadeva man.. by the end of the year i be pretty much reduced to just my Brain and perhaps my skull to hold its overflowing contents...

2006-02-08T05:18:00.000-08:00

Some commented dat i looked tired everyday.. sure bo.
HOw i look is one thing.. Tho im really tired. but are u sure its so obvious waaha.. BUT i havent doze off in classes and lectures so far. All i did was to wake ppl beside me (JOce & Cheewee) up and tat really kipped me awake.

Aniways i think my old old old injury is back. If i seek treatment = no training. Nats is lyk.. 2 mths away.. aha just hang on ba.

talk abt running. have to hit 70km per week. go where find time. kisiao. unless i really do lyk 1hr of run everyday den i can hit a average of 70++km per week. tats nuts. I dun even run so much during my holidays.. OK la i do. BUT tats during the HOlidays right. Crazy mR chen and ms lee....

I guess i'll have to revise my new year resolutions alreadi.
*I'll need to run 6kms on tues and thurs. 4ks on mon tues fri. Den a super long run during weekends. btw tats on top of my usual trainings on mon tues fri. so....

Siens.. 2 more mths.. If i can really accomplish wad i've set to do... I from den onwards... will be able to RUN FOR FUN wahhaa..

May the grace of Elune show me the path.

I;ve decided.. A WRX turbo with a big muffler can be quite a cool car to drive too..

2006-02-03T21:14:00.000-08:00

My memories have came back to haunt me. haha.. Just when i tot making myself tired is the best way to get myself lost in time..

Run run run.. too much Bakwa made my form vanish over night. Im now running lyk wad i;ve feast on during the CNY holidays. You're right. I ran lyk Bakwa.. Even some freshy is beating me flat now, tho i must say. He's GOOD.

Yawnss.. i must open my eyes and ears BIG. and SEAL my mouth. talking too much is bad for health..

Take tat Quote i told mong

DUN be too Bothered by BGR la..
Not Worth it..
Girls are...
..... dun say better. U wan to know ask mong

2006-01-21T10:30:00.000-08:00

Im Just Bored..

I saw Scores of Integra's the other day... and i knew.. i Had... TO FINISH MY INTEGRAtion 25b.. And tat's wad i did..

I feel so tired going to skool nowadays.. Physically and mentally. Yet i managed to seek strength from.. wadeva source i can find. And i did pull thru the week.

I feel rested... Only to know that time is running out.. For a new week will be coming.. The cycle gones on and on... I wonder when it will end...

Im left with a few pieces of uncomplete work.... 6 more years.. give me 6 moree years and i can say good bye to this undying period of education..

FREAK TO U MOE

Mr Goh
Ms Lim
Mr Teo
Mr Chu
Mr Yip
I will not Fail u

Mr Chen
I'll run with all my might

Mr Teng
Good luck. U need it

2006-01-18T04:28:00.000-08:00

Im tired. Yes i sure am...

I feel as tho all my Mana has been drained away from the sucking tentacles of a Felhound... Sucking me dry of any capacity to cast any spells....

Perhaps i have been gettin myself drained too much..

But i wun give up. Im confident i'll recover tmr...

The keyboard feels so "Fresh" to me. perhaps i havent been touching the com for far too long.. Shld get my work done.. see if i can play a few rnds of Warcraft later...

Aim high for the Horizon. Cos i know tat's where i belong.

Wad abt u?

2006-01-06T19:07:00.000-08:00

The Grand Inevitable Strikes back.

ONe week. Thats 1 week. Thing's gonna go fast for this yr. And i hope it really do.

First week of school. I wasnt really uncomfortable with the feeling that i'll have to return back to school again. I dun feel reborned. Neither do i feel... new. I feel as tho im dragging my battled body in 2005 and allowing it to stay for 2006. how sad.

Of cos tat didnt mean my first week ended without startin on the right note. In fact it was the first time i felt that i've really used up my time well for such a long time. I did many things.. really many things. My first week was fruitful.

Yet i felt something was missing. Missing real badly. Something i used to have back b4. But now i cant find and feel it animore. No longer is that farmilar voice nor body there animore. Thats wad i figured.

A new yr, A new beginning.. How sweet are these words candy-favored by the mouths of people. For life isnt tat simple i guess.. nothing did change tho a new yr has came. well it did change.. but not really towards the "good side" you see.

Lets get this done and over with.

2006-01-02T05:00:00.000-08:00

Some new year adaptions i wud lyk to have.

1)Slp everynight no earlier nor later den 12mn.

2)Wake up no later nor earlier den 6am

3)No slping unneccessary

4)Run everyday for at least 6k on tues and thurs morning. At least until the end of nationals

5)Be more happy

6)Self motivate myself more

7)Develop a reading habit. Sadly i have to do it at this age....

8)Be less weary of exhuastion. I believe i can do it. Its all in the mind man.

9)Thrash mr chu in econs

10)Dun be so oblivious to wads around me animore

End

Yawns.

Hope for a better age.

May Guys have fun for 2006. May all Girls.. turn into cool cars. Tho i may still hang on blindly to my limited edition RX-8 tho it's booked alreadi.

2005-12-29T21:31:00.000-08:00

its gonna be math again. Pardon me

If u are offered a qn
LOVE = ______ (3marks)

and u write "Blind" as the answer.

You'll probably get 1 mark for the question. reason? u've missed quite a number of steps in between

1)LOOK.

Love at first is about LOOKING

GAN. if u dun use ur eye. HOW TO SPOT UR TARGET?? of cos must see right.

2)READ

U'll have to see wad the book u've eyed on is about right?
For example reading the synopsis at de back of the book.

3)Accept

After knowing wad the book is about.
Consider if that book is suitable for you. There maybe certain parts tat dun really fit into ur character. BUT SO WAD. IF U LYK TAT BOOK U WUN MIND TAT SINGLE TEAR OR FOLD RIGHT. JUST BUY IT

4)Blind

Gan. u brought the book home. ur mum saw the torn. she'll say tat u're blind.

End

Ah simple analogy.

Love is special Bcos of the 2 attached. Each of dem can see some mutual characterics that others cannot see.

ITs even more so. Bcos the 2 attached will be able to accept wad they see.

well actually tats just my pt of view. wad i get to learn of. With my shallow yet viscous experience in love.

2005-12-29T06:45:00.000-08:00

Leading such a empty life now. i really hope for skool to reopen real Quick

i really hope to run now. i feel so bored.

i really hope to study now. i feel so bored.

i wanna get rid of the A lv system ASAP.

Its taxing and im getting sick of it.

I wanna get into NS. So i can go PRO with WOW.

IM BORED

2005-12-26T03:50:00.000-08:00

Shucks.. Did the dumbest thing one could have eva done.

Was roaming arnd my house looking for today's paper. I tot it was at my balcony. Yet i still couldnt find it. So ahh i told myself. Its ok. It maybe in my parent's room. so i went there.. Searched high and low for it. Yet i couldnt find it.

I went to my sister's room. No trace of it either.

Its den when my sister asked. "Oi Lao Mao. wad are u doing."

Den i told dem we i was looking for.

"AllahMark. u Stupid is it today boxing day where got papers."

loLS..

2005-12-25T12:42:00.000-08:00

Mong. iTs Alfa romeo. not my Alpha or ur Ulpha or wadeva.

Think of this. U guys take math right. Remember Quadratic equations? and the instances when we have to solve things lyk x^2 - 2x + 17955.

Given such a question:
The sum of 2 consecutive postive odd numbers gives u an answer of 17955. Wad are the 2 numbers?

-Alright. Lets take a look at this question from the perception of a Pri skool go-er. At tat time, we wouldnt know abt algebra and definately not about quadratic equation.

So how wud a Pri skool goer Solve this question??

The calculator of cos. Start pressing the buttons hoping to find the answer by multiplying 2 consecutive odd numbers.

In other words, Trial and Error.

-Now let us solve this question with our current abilities.

We'll let x be one of the numbers. and the other be (x+2)
Get the equation x^2 - 2x + 17955.
den solve it.
Finally gettin the answer x = 135

Now let's zoom into the various steps. For a normal person. How can u derive the equation
x^2 - 2x 17955 = (x+133)(x-135) in the end??

The calculator of cos. Start pressing the buttons hoping to find the answer by multiplying 2 consecutive odd numbers.

wahah wad a joke.
U go thru years of education. Learning ways thru books to solve problems which from the start u could have solved with ur natural abilities (being street smart).
No wonder there are more Nerds in the world compared to prodigies..

Prodigies and Nerds are common. In a way. Literally. They are developed and not intrinsic.

2005-12-25T01:18:00.001-08:00

Roamed the streets of somerset overnight.

Saw banglahs sitting beside dustbins and Sheep cracked de best joke i've heard so far. Shldnt share here..

King Kong. Wad a show. It made my head go KaKong. OmfG. i could have paid tat 9.50 on a loaf of subway bread. At least i wun need to torture myself.. Cold and HUngry.. Dark sommore.. in that squeezy theatre.

Lan session 1. Bf2 was fun. 4 v 4 and we really had a fight. Mong and me.. Helicopter King wahhaa.. flew arnd blasting off ppl asses.. Tho there's ones when our helicopters crashed into each other. WAHah "Isnt the sky big enuf for u to fly?"

Lan session 2. Wasnt reallyfun tho. No one was there to play actually.. it was 3 in the morning. Cold, Dark.. and Hungry.. as usual. Yet we fought on. Bf2 3 v 2. Mong and i had a good time trying to capture and defend our bases. Tho we lost. I managed to become the best flag defender. and him the best flag capturer.. wahah irony huh.

4am. Gs dropped by and we played 3 on 3 finally!! tho he wasnt on my team. But it's still fun.
Helicopters*Tanks*C4s*Backstabbing Tj*Running my buggy over Ray*

5am.. whoo finally decides to go home. mum called and asked where i was. I told her im sleepin in the streats cos i cant find a way to get back after my movie.

Gosh. im tired.. have to go run later again.. Woooooooooot.. RX-8RX-8RX-8!~~ 1.3l renesis Rotary~~ woOTtttt

2005-12-21T09:35:00.000-08:00

Time flies.... A blink of an eye... Another Yr gone by...

Time heals all wound...

No

Some will be left to swell...

A scar retains even if it does...

Acceptance is wad u need in this world...

No

For accepting is a form of escape

It changes no god.. no man..

Wad a fake... fake world...

2005-12-16T01:50:00.000-08:00

Do you believe in fate, Destiny or anithing of such sorts??

I was on my way for training at turf city this morning. As i alighted the bus, i ran pass the overhead bridge to the other side of the road. (I was running late btw. the stupid bus stopped at every stop it could find.. gOsh.. go into that some other time)As i walked up this road leading to the vascinity, i saw this red Alpha Romeo of number plate i shall not reveal.

You will think. Alpha Romeo onli ma, wads so great abt it. I see BMs and Lexuss everywhere.

Read on

On my way back, i took de same route out. And I saw the same red car zooming pass me across the road.

Thats not all.... When my bus reached YCK station, at the cross junction where u have Presbyterian high, a condo and the station, i saw the same car again.

Are some things in this world destined to happen? or is it fate dat let me see the car again and again in just a short period??

If one really believes in it, i guess u wudnt disagree with wad im gonna say next. Originated from this chinese saying actually. For an item that does not belong to you, howeva hard u try to grasp it within ur own hands, still, u will not gain poccession of it. For its your desinty not to have it in your poccession. Give it up. Maybe there are some other tings in this world whereby u're destined to have too?? Cheer up man

2005-12-09T02:04:00.000-08:00

Melissa~ Here U go~~

Wahh.. i wanna get new gamess.. but school's reopening soon. Went to gamespot and saw this super cool gundam seed Game.. LOOKS SO COOOL. SiGhs.. but i wun be going over to Msia so often~ Hints* bORing

Left all alone at home again. Stupid sister go meeet bf. Wahaha shld i be naughty again?? Go log in her WOW acc go kill some creeps. Im so BoreD~~ whoo getting my pay real soon.. another 2 weeks more and i'll be rich.

SaD ahh.. got money no one to spend with also no use. Whaaa.. go save up until it reaches a few hundred K.. den go get myself a SE3P... loLSss ohh if u havent realise wad tat is. ITs a RX-8.

Yawnssss.. why cant i find issue 36 of hotstuffsss.. im gettin out of things to read~~

2005-11-29T03:58:00.000-08:00

I heeded the words of the ancient prophecies. Abiding it lawfully word by word, i was kept silent, forced to consume my own emotions lyk a turtle in its shell. Days passes by and change, yet life stood frozen on the spot, unable to cry out, every moment as tho it was for eternity.

For a instance time seems to have came to a halt. For that the truth behind these prophecies i held on to for so many years turned out to be mere fallacies. Heart broken i was. Petrified i was. Yet i had to remain seemingly unaffected. Its hard to put up a good act.

I am totally speechless.

The Genuine truths behind the truths i should call that. For i, once again became the fool of this entire setting.

2005-11-24T06:56:00.000-08:00

oh yA.. wnS..

IF only i can snap my fingers and the entire earth goes BORMM.. burst into flames.. wudnt tat be good.

COol huh.. watched too much alchemist. "Combining air and sparks together, given the coordinates i can create an explosion out of thin air." whoo.. how come this looks so much lyk ShuDa's DarkBring.. ahha.

YawNS i dun wanna run animore. i feel SO bored just by running. And its giving me lots of problems. u can just chop off my legs and i can join some slack club lyk the malay cultural society. Since our skool's gonna become a malay school aniway. I guess its good tat i shld know more abt their culture. I wonder how my skool will look lyk when the entire freshmen cohort is made up of u know.. Malays.. will there be a culture, mental and communication gap between me and my future junoirs?? I cant wait for skool reopen to come.. This will get interesting wahhaa

-Disclaimer: THis is just a v random posting. If u dun understand, it suggests 1 thing, im too random for u. If u feel that the contents consisted of racist remarks.. U ARE WRONG.

2005-11-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

This time.. time came to a halt for me.

I looked at into de overcasted sky. As all movement arnd me came to a total standstill. There's one thing im sure this time. This will be a storm i will never pull thru. Perhaps...

There's a chinese saying that goes, IF you dun cast wad is old away, u will never get newer things in return. How true is this? The old may not necessary be bad and stale all the time u see. In that case, how possible is it for me to cast wad i;ve longed to have for such a long time???

There seems as tho there'll many collectors out there who really loved old antiques. However only 1 managed to get hold of this antique everyone had been longing to have.

Sadly.... I wasnt the one....

I tried telling myself to give up, yet i couldnt bring myself to do it. I hope the owner can cheerish wad he has now.

2005-11-15T05:06:00.000-08:00

The World came to a halt. The clock came to a total stand still in the early mornings of Nov 13 2005. With the tragic news spreading around the entire wrestling community, thousands mourned for the death of WWE wrestler Eddie Guerrero, aged 38. The wrestling superstar was found dead in his hotel room in Mineapolis with a toothbrush by his side. Beliefs were that he died after suffering a heart attack.

Named as one of the best wrestlers of his generation, Eddie is one of the best artists of the craft of history i believed. Leaving his amazing career behind, Eddie left his fans, me inclusive(tho im not his fans) into deep depression, truely i was left in a state of shock.

I watched a few of his wrestling clips and i had this sudden sense of nostalgia. As if i really hoped to see this guy wrestle again. I guess thats wad i mean by takign things for granting. I used to switch of the TV or tune into the other channels wheneva this great legend wrestled in the past.

I mourn deeply for the death of Eddie and i hoped that he will rest in peace.

This news impaled my heart. i wonder why. I couldnt expalin this. but im kinda sad. Perhaps im forced to face the fact that sometimes things lyk such can happen. Just in a single instance when no 1 was noticing. Fellow wrestlers were still talkin to him when they alighted from the plane. And later the next day, he was alreadi found dead. The adversities of life i guess.. i feel so sad....

2005-11-11T19:18:00.000-08:00

wah. this is the first time i got so many bday wishes. Bday onli ma. no big deal.

Yawns. after many sessions of wichi failed to complete my trainin decently... i managed to sweep today's 13k run with NO sweat at all. i wondered wad really happened during those days.

Aniways. tanks every1 who wished me a good bday.

I really tot u're not wishing me.. lOL wahha.. think history sometimes will tend not to repeat itself. Its goona be a good day.

2005-11-06T03:28:00.000-08:00

wad a lifeless day....

I slpt and slpt and slpt. I slpt as tho i've forgotten abt my own existance. cant remember anithing significant at all.

Warcraft was the same as ani other day. 5 workers from the start till u get tonnes of units in the end. I played. Won mostly.

Now im in such a daze. I guess i really slept too much today. Mind is in such a mess. So many things circulating in it as tho they're gonna burst of out my head to say HI in ani moment.

My house is quiet as usual. With my dad out, 2nd and 3rd sis out, Im pretty much left muted in my room. waha as tho i'll have anithing to say if they were here. All i can hear is my own speakers blasting those music i've listened eva since i was a kid. I wonder when i'll get sick of it. Just communication.. Rhythm Emotion... White Reflection... wahaa.

To Sum everything UP. IM BORED. no worthy shows to watch, no entertaining things to do. No purpose to ask ani frens out. Yawns.Perhaps i shld begin studying i guess.. wahaa...

The lyrics of this song perfectly descibes my mood now. How sweet..

2005-11-03T02:26:00.000-08:00

Im contented. Its such a wonderful and well-lived day.

Tanks juliana and aaron for coming up with such an superb idea. I owe u guys 1 for coming up with a grp blog. Afterall, we're buddies!

Managed to see her finally , after allowing my feelings to hide in myself for so long. I broke down, in the end. Yet i know i'll be back up strong once again.

"i cried, perhaps i really couldnt accept it yet"

I feared and trembled as i walked towards her. A strange kind of feeling confronted me as i advanced forward. A sense of denial i guess....

She's living so happily in my dreams such tat i almost mistaken it for reality. i wonder wad i shld do.

As i wondered is that the book ive been looking for eva since the beginning?

I guess i tried too hard trying to grasp reality from my dreams...

2005-10-30T07:12:00.000-08:00

A couple of years back, when i was working in this library in my district, i managed to spot this beautifully decorated book. Well perhaps i was too busy with my own committments, i failed to pick it up to read.

not long after, I left the library in hope to find a better pay. Much to my surprise, that book turned out to be a award winning best seller. Oh well. I began my search for the book ever since, inhope that i can even have a chance to glance at it once again.

Now finally, the book i;ve been anticipated for so many years is in reach. Yet it is so close Yet still so far. Its fabulous cover made me fell even more deeply in love with it. Given the luck, i was able to peep into the contents of the book. Yet i was dumbfounded by the alienating words and sentences. I tried to squint even harder, inhope to decode these terms. Instead, i got even more confused and mystified.

i've decided to put aside the book, "My caliber isnt high enuf"," the time is still not right" i believed. dumbfounded i may be still, yet my love for the book remains.

2005-10-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

wah gosh.. i guess God really loves to play pranks on ppl.

My dad was talkin abt this the other day too. He was driving me to skool that day and i was running late. yet there was so much traffic. He was lyk going. " when u're not rushing for time, the road is so free of cars. and now, its so packed"

Well perhaps i shld reiterate his pt and reinforce it further. God loves to play prank on my life. wahaa. wadeva others may think thats how i felt.

So many things to support my pt. BGR and stuffs. but better nto reveal too much. i guess its fun being a scorpio afterall. Secretive and stuffs.. just lyk a bakwa. u wun know its nice until u put it into ur mouth.

Anways. benig Sick is not fun at all. plain porriage + no games. Even studies. All u do is slp slp slp. Just by looking this blardie screen makes my head spin. wtH!!!!!

Green and related. wahha guess i;ve figured it out. just yet to try if my hypothesis is right.

2005-10-22T21:20:00.000-07:00

Gundam Seed Destiny do have really nice songs. Aniways just hope Box 2 can be out soon.

0,0 is the face i'll give for today. CAnt really remember wad exactly remembered earlier today. So boring. Cant even get myself back to the table to do chinese.

TOld myself, ok 9 oclock to start. And now im still blogging.

Yawns.. oh its 22oct. Happy bday KEYNES. tho im sure u wun see this. i've been thinking if i shld msg him just to acknowledge. But it seems so gay and unlikely to do something lyk tat 2 a guy. perhaps i shld just come up with somehting stupid again...

let me see.. wad abt msging him at 12.01am sayin SHIT MISSED BY JUST A MOMENT HAPPY BLATED BDAY?

HOw lame can i get.. goshh SIenSS ahh..

Wanted to play tennis earlier this morning. Guess wad the courts are BOOKED by dunno whu. I wonder why. whenever i wanna do something real badly, things lyk this have to happen. In retrospect, i can mention all of such incidents. When i got my game boy, my PS2... and now recently, my NANO.. Thats not all. When i wanna play BDadminton when i was young, it rained. Now no rain. but no courts. I chase ger, she end up saying she;s not straight.(not real of cos)

Sometimes i really wonder if im cursed of ill luck. OF cos im not saying just becos of all these things tat have happened to me so im refering myself as a super unlucky guy. hmmm i wonder if its just a trade off cos i have such a wonderful family. well not missnig those crazy frens of mine.

Here comes the law of equivilant exchange again. wahhaa but such things are really hard to say. Ultimately the law onli applies to a certain extent.

2005-10-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

To think that i actually got enlightened by a.... Well afterall she's still an adult. tanks tho u may not hear this.

Thought that it is a good idea to make this reference. Just lyk econs, in life u'll need to draw links here and there in a flexible manner. Or shld i say just lyk life, u'll need to link all the stuffs up in econs lyk satay.

Henyways, i was abt to fall aslp, after getting my WR done. But and again, i recalled of some chinese stuffs to complete. The usual me--- WHO GIVES A DAMN ABT CHINESE. But somehow this thought came to my mine today. "If u can link Chinese work to commitments, wad will u do?" Den i started thinking abt the meaning of the word "Commitment." Well i guess its kinda lyk coming to skool huh. or going for training, fulfilling my job as a captain and stuffs. U cant just say that u're tired So HECK AHhh... DUN GO TO SKOOL. Well similarly i applied Chinese Work into the same context, It really sent me off to finish it at once.

One more pt, ARROWING to someone whu loves to make sacarstic comments during lectures, THO u may mean us well. I guess i dun really have to care abt wad u wrote in my scripts. Ultimately u are refering to the "MINGBANG" who existed when u are still marking my script. Update urself.

But and again. there's no such thing as a LATEST version of "MINGBANG"(perhaps LATEST Just a MOMENT AGO huh) so.. i wonder wad other comments can u make that MAY be accurate. wahhaa.. Try me and i'll prove u wrong the next moment.

2005-10-13T00:14:00.000-07:00

Its Over...

Celebrating will almost seem so ironical. Celebrate, be happy, just to know that u've gotten back to square one. And the Cycle always repeats itself. HOw Boring.

Just when i tot Exams are over and i can finally be liberated from studying. As i ponder, i wonder wad shld i do now? Suddenly there is this tinch of emptiness felt in my heart, as tho i've just lost my way.

That really tells how boring a person i am. Maybe i've really overlooked the role of a student. "Other than studying, there's nothing else". Gosh! but come to think abt it. Ive always been such a person i guess, trying hard to do wadeva i shld do well.

But sadly, i seldom get the outcome i've always wanted. Reason: the dark side of me that tells me to slack off.

WooTs. But well den. Since Im supposed to Relax and enjoy this Short moment of peace, i must as well get it done well too loLs...

2005-10-11T03:23:00.000-07:00

I think i better quit skool and go set up some mama stall below my house. Learn from those ah nehs. Small yet viable. Hehe.. EOS sia.

Study so hard for wad. In the end the result is so similar to not studying.. Pui. Maybe next time i'll try not study. Perhaps i can score better.

Scully if i dun study A levels come out wah, straight dintinctions. Hmm.. The result i'll get is inversely proportional to the amt i study. Serious. i dun study i top class. I study.. end up failing.

kns.. can some doctor explain this phenomenon?

Sigh.. wadeva la.. since i;ve alreadi studied until such an extent, i guess i'll just carry on with more intensive physics. Besides if i dun study i wonder wad other excuses can i give to allow time to pass.

Cheers regardless of the results i still love myself(quoted from Keynes, edited by me) Henyways de most get retain onli. wahaha.. maybe its time to consider the benefits of gettin retained...

2005-10-06T11:20:00.000-07:00

"Ur Wife will be so fortunate to have such a committed husband next time.."

oh well

Wad the hell am i doing up this late? im supposed to be slping.. getting ready for GP paper tmr

Faked many excuses for not handing up WR... aiya MR PANG u pah jiao la.. I got send u.. the truth is... actually dun have.. awahaHAHa.. i dunno how to send him tat sloppy piece of work. Wanted to edit it.. but the moment i tot of doin the entire thing alone.. it kinda siens me out... wuDUHELLl~~~

Gosh how. i seemed to be spending my time with many weird ppl nowadays.. i wonder why.
Getting v weird myself also.. GS and pooh must help me TUO1 LI2 KU2 HAI3. Drag me out of BITTER sea. wahhaa..

OH remember. my bday coming. Make SURE U TREAT ME BF2 UNTIL SHOP CLOSE DOWN... U SAY 1 AH

2005-10-05T03:22:00.000-07:00

I'll get v stressed whenever someone asks me who i lyk... goosebumps will appear whenever i tried to answer the qn. THe answer is terrifying even 2 myself. Cos..... She is G.......

whahaa i'll be stuck. Hope my future employer dun ask such a qn during my interview.

But henyways. I managed to DL Zillions of songs overnight. Cracking my brain juice tryin hard to recall all the EAR candies wahhaa.. u have eye candy. So there must be a EAR candy too right?

IF gs reads this, he will definately think abt "SKIN candy".. wad shld i say.. pleasure upon touch?? wahhahAHAa

2005-10-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

I haveta earn lots of money next time. So i can live an easy life...

Aiya why so Stress.. Relak la MB.. somehow things will turn out fine. Somehow hHEEe..

SMile Smile.

Promos is just a peice of banana skin below ur feet. dun step on it the wrong way can le.

Tell u whyyy..

when u are cornering. Try using a banana skin. it'll give u the extra slide. Perhaps u can enter fast and exit the hairpin faster..

But if u happen to step on it at a wrong angle.. ur car may topple..

get wad i mean???

Cool anology huh.. FYI i wrote it out of bordom.. and i just typed wadeva came to my mine as i write now.

BYEBYE econs rock depending the level of suckyness u deemed it to be. So in the end it still sucks. So u see la.. To rock and to Suck is just a thin line apart. So.. u know la.. when u suck u can rock too. so inthe end whu rock and whu suck?

2005-10-03T15:06:00.000-07:00

How "mB" is the MB u have seen in JC.....during the past 10mths

"Gosh" Just a few more girls in my life. A bit more stress In my life.. A slight more of commitments in my life have made myself forgot whu i truely am.

But i guess im really starting to find back whu i truely am. Im such a slow adapter. I still remember myself saying "everyone arnd me has changed such tat i couldnt adapt well enuf." I used to blame My GOOD frens arnd me for my plight. I soon come to realise, it was me whu was truely abnormal. I apologise.

All i can say, is tat im lyk a monster in frenzy. Unable to hold on to my own emotions. I got read by the ppl arnd. Instead of reading them.

Now i feel as tho i've finally awaken totally from my 1203981209381203yrs of torpor. The world seems lyk a fun place to live in. So much for the joy and anger i'll get to see in it.....

Live is good.. cos i know now. it is in my control..

2005-09-30T10:35:00.000-07:00

The unlykly confindant...

Its strange that a person can actually share so much with ppl u dun really know well... Yet still manage to leave some FOOD for ThoughT... well it really Left me pondering again.

Wahaha i;ve gotten it alreadi.. felt so much better now.. was still wondering if i was gonna pull thru yesterday.. didnt know i can put things down so easily wahahaa..

2005-09-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

Jealousy, Greed, Anger, Sadness. When these feelings combine.. we have TMB...

How i longed to have fangs now so i can literally suck life out of anione who stood in my path..

i wonder will will happen when Promos is over.

If only life is alchemy.....

2005-09-25T07:07:00.000-07:00

Sometime i really wonder if im made of brute or smth.... Was trying hard to repair my Bikey... when i literally Broke this metallic piece of "screw on" thingy with my bare hands. Now my front gear's dEAD. Intially it wasnt as bad but now iTS DEAD!!

Henyway. It gave me a sudden rage to chiong to the nearest bike shop to buy some spare parts. On my own i hoped to fine tune wadeva flaws there are in my cheapo bike.

Perhaps i shld add in a turbo charger and a tank of nitrous...

Skool again tmr. Its lyk a start of a brand new life..

I've just realised my parents almost aborted me when i was found to exist. Guess i better live a fuller life from now on..

Dedicated to my BBBBBF

Happy bday to u.
Had a great time this morning chatting and having lunch together.
One more step into the new Era.
The air u breath is adorned beautifully with this occasion.
In the 17th year of ur existence shall it bring more colours to not just ur own, but all our lives.

2005-09-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

Time flies.. It's alreadi 1week since i casted u aside.

My saturday looked exactly the same as the previous one. Studied, ith the same person. Yet i was happy to be able to. Its hard to get such an opportunity. We're supposed to be close, but there seems to be a vast distance between the both of us whenever we're tgt. Thats strange.

I wonder how she feels.

Something's happening to me. I got v agitated yesterday during PE. I wonder why. I looked at the lack of coordination in my fresbie team. I looked at the way my team played. I got damn pissed. Although i was fully aware that i wasnt much of a superb player too. But.. this is different. The usual me.. will take it lightly.. Com;n its just a game.. who caress whu wins or loses. Yet, i wanted to thrash the hell out of every1 yesterday, yet i was unable to. I was disappointed. I wonder wad sparked me off for that.

Stressed? how could it be. Andrew used to say that i misjudged my own abilities. Perhaps im really such a person.. apart from the things i used to joke in class, abt how good i am and how i could have thrashed my various subject teachers. I felt i;ve existed to PERFECT things, yet im always not performing. Is it true that i sucked or am i really underperforming?

2005-09-17T15:49:00.000-07:00

MAnaged to Score so many pts WooOT. mB u rawked

Went to have intensive studying session with Jul yesterday.. which lasted all the way until today.. woot.. rushed back home in the middle of a downpour... Feeling so good now.. woot.

2005-09-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

So much for puking all the time after my 800m race.. thanks ah mR wong.

Did 2.12min a day ago for my 800m skool sports heats. Wasnt a commendable timing tho. BUt i guess its better den nothing.

Well managed to break The Skool's record for 400m today. clocked 56.06sec. Sounded so pro huh.. com'n la previous record was the first ever record set in innova history, sommore i was the one whu started the record.. Chay.
But was kinda happy when i did 56.06. tho tats still quite far from my PB. Perhaps it was tat i reached my Goal so yea..

And again.. 56.06 is nothing in national standard. So is 2.12....

Went in our skool's Mid authum fest celebrations. Come to think abt it. My granny passed away 7 yrs ago during Mid authum fest. Had fun watching those performances.

Somehow i feel that im startin to know a person from my class better. The person seems pretty different frm wad we think by impression.. interesting...

Oh btw Congrats to GS, keynes, WS and MY. u all rocked in the run today.

2005-09-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

Apologies Guys for being Super mean today. wAHaa.. Esp to JU. Tho i wasnt with u i guess u did a pretty good throw today! just tat it wasnt me to verbalise something lyk tat. So... haix.. i mocked at u instead.

Well Was a total sinner today. DID something super wrong. Apologies to GS.

Apologies and apologies.. sometimes i really feel so high tat im literally enjoying myslef at the expense of other's pride and esteem. I wonder how people felt when i treated dem that way... Some were laughing while others kept quiet. Wonder how they felt inside.

Perhaps i shld have STFU..

2005-09-11T01:37:00.000-07:00

I've ran 21k!!!!
Say That Again???
ITS 21k folks

GOsh this may make veteran and elite runners laugh but i managed to finish my v first 21k today in the shear's bridge run, clocking.. better not tell. Just note tat i lost to Ms Enya GoH, Tommie Chen, Lots more. BTW MS GOH is damn fast. De moment she started running she disappeared infront of my eyes

Guess my Body isnt fit enuf to challenge that distance yet(after eating and slacking throughout the entire holiday) Legs cramped at the... FINAL 100m(damnit) literally brought me down to my knees just to message my calf. And when i cant get it fixed, i limped to the finishing line. HERO ah..

Oh yea.. i'll be doing Full marathon in the year end.. i wonder how possible tat may be..

2005-09-11T01:33:00.000-07:00

Continued~

Smart Mb Runs to the nearest poh kim happily after knowing that he doesnt have to go all the way down to the branch in PS. Finally he gets to exchange his VCds for a set of good 1s... HE THOUGHT.but who knows, god loves to play pranks on little MB. MB soon realises that there is NOTHING wrong with the VCD and its his own blunder... waahahhahaa congrats.. -throws confetti

2005-09-09T17:54:00.000-07:00

When 16yr old Ming Bang Opened his new Anime Box, he delicately places the VCd into his VCD Player. Anticipating the very first episode he has Longed to watch a year ago. Unfortunately the disc was found to have some defects and it is not playable.

Just a small little anology to illustrate my SWAYness.. its BULL SHIT!!! why will this happen? Stupid animation i've been longing to watch. NOw i've finally gotten it and this has to happen. LYK COM'n! there's so many boxes out there, how in the blue hell did i manage to grab the one that is spoilt... omG

Wad to do? i shld have grown used to my usual Swayness.. well den.. looks lyk i've to go all the way back to PS to get the stupid vcDs changed... alone sommore.. kns...

2005-09-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

Not the Usual "Reason" from hoobastank but "REASON" by Takami Nami who, certainly is as young as we are. Featured in Gundam Seed DEstiny's First Ending Theme.

Nice Song indeed...

Woah.. imagine the Big bucks rolling into her bank account at the age of 17... If onli i have so much money i'll
1st: Share The money with my famliy
2nd: Buy myself a RX-8
3rd: Treat my friends to a sumptuous meal.

But there's something money cant buy (wadeva shitty bank card that says this) wahha..
LOVE(true indeed), WIts(something u cant get unless u are me)... Youth(to a certain extent u can.. just dun make urself look lyk michael jackson)

2005-09-08T04:45:00.000-07:00

Idolised? Or is it Love?

The Voice of 1 wins over a million

The Sight of 1 sends ur thoughts running(to wad degree thats for u to judge) and hearts beating.

The Touch of 1 is more delicate den even the most precious stones

The Thought of 1 made you miss him/her even more

Standing face to face with 1, is lyk a thousand miles apart.

So much to say but uncertain of where to start.

Mesmerised by the way he/she looked at you, u stayed spellbinded and speechless.

Wad is this?

If i knew i wudnt have asked..

2005-09-06T12:51:00.000-07:00

Is it really a waste of time to hold on to the dreams and hopes that do not belong to u? ANd also is it true that it is destined that u will never get somethings even tho u longed to have dem?

Strangely my the things that happened arnd me has made me come to realise how much i actually have.. and wad i actually dun. As for the things i have, i tried my best to throw dem away. Yet as for those tat i dun not poccess, i dream of owning it. Ironic huh. Perhaps it;s just "normal" to take things for granted.

Feeling as empty as before, now i doubt wad can ever cure me. Maybe i shld just get myself busy over many things. So i wun have the time to think of such crap. wahha.. woah. Perhaps im really having too much time slacking.. shld get to work soon..

How i hoped Life can be lyk a deal where u know.. The LAW OF EQUIVILANT EXCHANGE holds.. But its hard to deny that sacrifices can be made with nothing to get in return. oh well.. thats de world we live in~

2005-09-05T18:07:00.000-07:00

Perhaps the holiday has really driven me crazy.

Woah woah im not saying im having too much fun here. Ever since i entered JC, life has indeed changed. In retrospect, i used to be much more motivated to study. But ever since that incident, i seemed to have changed. i TOld myself i must live a better life and grow stronger. I promised her. But now lookat myself..

Diagnostic test on thursday, and im nowhere close to beginning revision. Wad on earth has happened to me? Is it true that the Void in my heart has became even bigger now? A sense of emptiness reigned over me. Some may say that they truely understand how i feel but is that true?

There's something i've always longed to get. And i guess thats de onli cure to my state. BUT my current condition is also the only thing that stops me from getting anything at the first place. Sigh

Well something will work out. I believe. I always do...

2005-09-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

Petrified as i looked at her picture now. Even as i browsed thru my friendster pages.. i tried hard to miss her account. Perhaps im just living in a state of self-denial. How i missed those days when she's still arnd.

Is it just me? Days seemed to fly by lyk a speeding bullet. So fast that even i couldnt remember living through those days. Now as the third quater of the year comes to a close, i embrace myself, for the brink of destruction. How i wished life is so innocent.

Live is full of crap. Tho the law of Equivalent Exchange seemed so real, yet the world have once again proved it wrong. How i wished i had someone beside me to hold my tears. I really regret being the way i had been.

No one in this world really deserve to be treated nicely, maybe perhaps for some, my family especially. Some say that it was god who had created us. Hence dey shld devote their lives to him. The onli thing i knew was that I was created by my family and no one deserved to be treated better den them.

How i hope life is forever as comfortable as it is at home.

Strangely many things had happened. Why is that so? is it really true that life is lyk a stage where everything is so superficial? Is it true that some things are destined to happen? And what do they imply?

How i hoped im just an island.. So i wun know how it feels to be lonely. and the need to be responsible for others...

Shld i close myself in.. or shld i remain the way i am?

who am i.. wad am i?

I really admire Siddhartha Guatama, i wonder how he attained enlightenment..

2005-07-30T04:14:00.000-07:00

This entry will be devoted to my beloved friend Kathy Chew Hew Ting

Wad are friends for??

Making friends have since became a normative statement to all. Some may even feel indifferent over the issue of knowing friends and therefore developing long term friendships.

Friends are people we know, like, and trust. Someone whom u'll spend time with. Have fun with. Great People whu will leave beautiful memories behind.. even when they are not around. Buddies are people whum we'll get close and comfortable with. Unfortunately, HUMANs.. lyk u and I tend to take things for granted as soon as we get ourselves warm and comfortable wherever we go. Friendships, too are not sparred.

The closer we got. The more aloof phrases like "Are ya doing?", "Hi are u alright", will sound mutually. Ironical huh? Soon such phrases will never be brought up when we see how best buddies everyday. However, do u know that all it takes is a small "hi" to make a hell of a difference to ones life??

Life is full of surprises. Though it is true that certain things could be speculated, one has to consider that there are some which one can never contemplate. Shit Do happen.. YES they really to. it is not like some melodrama you see on the tv. Beneath the facade of our dreams and fantasies.. ITS REALITY.. Shit does happen.. And when it does, it may be on your loved ones.. ur best buddies... Till den if wished to say a simple "Hi how are u??" u may soon realise.. its impossible to do so.

Now i stand on the brink.. of the seperation of my best buddy... its lyk a harbinger of eternal destruction. Pain that one can never discribe with words. All i can hope is that i;ve done my part and all i could as her buddy.

I will miss you... Kathy...

2005-05-28T02:06:00.000-07:00

bnm, m

2005-05-28T02:04:00.000-07:00

vbnv bmb hvk

2005-05-20T17:53:00.000-07:00

Im back.

She may have the wits. She may have a good figure. She may look pretty. But The moment she lights a cigarette and takes a puff.. ShE'S F*CKED!

Just a small anecdote. to show my concern over ppl who smoke.. CONCERN?? i mean discountentment. Aiyoo just saw 2 M***** gers smoke in their skool uniform.. and they are onli in secondary school. wad has the world come to?? Gers whu smoke are really pathetic.. wahaha.

Countless recounts to talk abt eva since i threw this blog unattended for....... 3 weeks? or was it 2? wadeva. aniways last few trainings have been rather slack. The reason? ERIC WONG IS MY COACH. i'll die under his.. GUIDANCE. Guess Ms lee and mS chen shared the same views also. So Dey have imparted their knowledge abt 800m training to me.. and NOW i can train without eric wong.. ask tat loser to go lick his bone laHHHhhhhhhhhhhh~

The previous few weeks have been SO tiring(tats why i didnt blog). i wonder why. The work load didnt seem to have increased. My trainings have slackened. There's no reason i can give to substantiate my CLAIM.. perhaps im just mentally tired..

Next week will be too. But guess wad. Holiday is here. and finally i cant take some break from skool to catch up on work..

Nats is coming soon too.. better work hard.

2005-05-11T07:12:00.000-07:00

In this world of darkness

i shall save the world... YET i dare not let even my subconcious mind dwell more on my plan....

If i even had a plan...

which i didnt

BUT if i did.. i would not dwell on it

oh would i??

wahh GooDd GOD im MAD